Follow your fluctuating heart

Heard a lot before "follow your heart'. But how to trust that little pumping house of our body?. It’s not at all particular about anything.

There were so many things my heart wanna do but end up always on the other plateau.

1) ARTIST

Never had aim for my life. Offcourse u doesn’t keep aim at 5th grade. I was good at canvas and chalk n pencil sticks were my favourite. Wee-Wonder was one edition of times of India used to come every Wednesday where micro artists can participate by sending their drawings. I’ve sent a lot and on one fine day it was published. I was in 3^rd grade then. Since then, this passion flourished and I won painting competition in 5^th, 6^th and in 8^th grade. In 5^th grade itself I decided to be an artist but left the idea as in 8^th grade my heart shifted to DANCING

2) DANCER

During 8^th grade I’d my first hit performance in school and then I started joining local dance groups and given other hit performances other than school. It went for some more years and then 10^th board, where you are just suppose to study then.

3) BUSSINESS MAN

I started studying hard in 10^th grade and left my other hobbies to diminish. Being great in calculation and thanks to Gujarat’s earthquake I scored 100/100 in mathematics and that was the first time Shashank scored any ranking in class. Not just any rank, I was second in whole class. Me and my friend went to some commerce schools and fill the forms to join commerce and then B-COM and then MBA and then BUSSINESS MAN. Our brains were not meant to work for other brain. But, how can u escape your father. He shouted, scolded and kicked me in science stream. To overcome the pain, I joined one dance group.

4) BOLLYWOOD STAR

Oh man, golden days of my life. Dancing yielded me first girlfriend of my life. I was in love and started plotting bollywood as my area. Filled some boogie woogie forms but never through. This practice screwed my terminal results and only thing which was visible clearly, my black future. I lost my girl and dream to be a bollywood star.

5) Dr. SHASHANK

Finally somehow I managed to score first class in 12^th science. As dream of becoming a real doctor were shattered, I joined Bsc and planned to do Msc and then Phd to prefix doctor before my name. As lived 18 years on earth. It was high time for me to decide my aims. This time the goal of dr. before my name was crystal clear but, was fallen again in love with the beauty and didn’t even bothered to remember the number and name of bsc subjects. First terminal in next one month, ha ha u can’t through the exams if u doesn’t even have the idea of subject u studying. God is always great; I got the call for engineering.

6) ROBOTICS

It feels cool and exciting that robots made under your hands are in market and people are dying to buy. I decided to join Machatronics, sandwiched course of electronics and mechanical. It was clear and decided until the day of counselling, my father forced me to join electrical engineering for better future perceptive, as foreseen by my dad.

7) COMPUTER GEEK

My father bought me computer in third year of my college. I became geek of computer and started learning hacking tricks. I was also interested in multimedia editing. I used to attend some stupid IT branch seminars and read Networking books. But as it was Gujarat, almost my every college mates dream was to land USA for master studies. How I could left myself alone in India. I joined GRE classes.

8) NRI

I became regular to the beautiful city, Baroda, where I joined the GRE classes. Every weekend was going awesome and studying hard became regular in my diet. Library, College Lawn, Classrooms, Train, Buses these places became our favourites for studying GRE. I didn’t even registered once for the exam and college campus started gulping my fellow mates for jobs. After some struggle I was selected in ‘so called’ best real estate company of India.

9) SUCCESSFUL ENGINEER

Capital city of India, it started feeling my brain with the fantasies to be rich and successful and I started drawing myself as successful engineer. But as always happened in past, this time also cards were not placed in place. College days started haunting me and just to overcome it I started scripting in books.

10) ANIMATOR

Bought laptop within 4 months of joining the job and as college days were haunting me. I started preparing short films and editing old pics to relive them again. I started learning animation softwares and some tricks to keep myself busy other than job. I also prepared my own web page to show my creativity to the world and surfed some of the animation institutes but found “no courage” to join them. Meanwhile my current job started showing interest with me because of my “no courage” to join animation; it then shifted from my ambition to hobbies.

So from artists to ‘just working’ professional, heart always keep playing. Only way to control this stupid pumping thing, is just not to think about it. Who cares where the hell we gonna land up. Just keep enjoying yourself and always be happy.